What am I doing?

So, today I went to an amazing event known as the Adcance conference. It was an awesome experience. There I was able to hear some real men of God bring forth His word, and really feel the spirit move. I then went and ate dinner with Amy and Whitney and came back to my host family to relax for a bit. It was here, after some time, that I really started anaylzing a question... what am I doing? First, let's take a step back, and get some perspective on life in general. As much as we put ourselves in a high regard, and have a much over inflated since of worth, the reality is we are one of 6 billion people... one of 6 billion. I don't mean to sound depressed or anything, but I mean... I honestly feel like that I am important sometimes, but the fact of the matter is I am simply one in six billion. Now, when we think about how small we are in copmparison to this world population how much smaller are we then God in comparison? I am certain that God would utterly dwarf my previous comparison. SO... back to what am I doing. i get in a nice little rut, doing my own thing ya know enjoying life and all that jazz. But, I am DOING nothing really. I am just kind of contributing to my life. Not really making a difference. Not really bringing anything to the table. YET... yet God sent His son to die for me anyway! Also, there is really nothing I can DO to make God love me more anyway! So... why did I feel the need to type this. Because, I feel that a true love for God will be followed by actions. If we don't have actions then we aren't allowing ourselves to be transformed by the love of Christ. What am I doing? Right now... not really anything for God. BUT... with His grace I will start making a difference in my small, pathetic sphere of influence. I will start inconviencing myself for Christ. I will start trying to give Him my life, and it will never be enough for Him... but thats not what matters anyway. But, it is what I want to give, and I desire to do so... or at least WANT to desire to do so.